lunedì 25 novembre 2013

You may have no direction; but the flow has it.

Tutti guardavano BreakingBad l'anno in cui io mi ammazzavo di speed.
Ditemi che non è un vivere il flusso.



mercoledì 20 novembre 2013

O giriamo pagina o cadiamo dal foglio

Guardiamoci negli occhi ora, sobri, senza fumare, riposati, senza cercare qualcosa, provocazione. Il coraggio di guardarsi negli occhi: dimmelo, che cosa vuoi fare? Avevi bisogno di sentirti amato e l'unico modo che hai trovato finora è stato carnalmente. Perchè siamo uguali io e te: per conquistare qualcuno, dobbiamo andarci a letto e dimostragli chi è il migliore. Ma non siamo un po' vecchi per andare a letto con chiunque? Il coraggio di guardarsi negli occhi sapendo di avere una settimana senza nulla da fare davanti e avere il coraggio di riempirla insieme. Abbiamo provato di tutto, ma manca ancora qualcosa per essere felici. Abbiamo provato di tutto, senza mai provarci insieme, io e te. Dunque credo che quel qualcosa sia tu. Questo è il mio deserto, ma fuori so quanto mondo c'è e voglio vederlo tutto. Ma prendiamocela comodi. Come abbiamo sempre fatto, sapendo però che lo faremo per sempre. I'm going verso the happiness and has been Berlin to teach me how to do it. L' importanza di avere energia, l'importanza della musica a scandire, accellerare e prolungare il ritmo del tempo. Essere sempre creativi, valorizzando te stesso prima di un lavoro. But there, there're too many people to be happy. I'm not looking for new people to love. I just need a place for the people that I love, to take care on each others. Quando me ne sono andata ero troppo romantica per stare bene insieme, così come tu eri troppo volante. Ora io sono più che disillusa, così come ho capito quanto sia fondamentale avere un nido in cui tornare. Una casa e qualcuno da amare che, comunque, sarà al tuo fianco. Un paio di generazioni fa gli uomini andavano in guerra in Russia e se sono riusciti a tornare a casa a piedi, è solo perchè avevano un posto dove andare e qualcuno che li attendeva. Tu lo sa quanto me. E le nostre vite si sono intrecciate senza che nessuno dei due si sia particolarmente impegnato. Sì bè, forse io all'inizio che non avevo di meglio da fare. Adesso però non è una questione di noia, è una questiona di darsi importanza a vicenda e a quello che siamo. E secondo me io e te insieme siamo una bomba d'energia. Voglio vederti felice e non solo soddisfatto; vorrei che capissi che non è questione di tempo ma di priorità. E se ci va male, ci mettiamo a fare porno, come avevi suggerito mentre mi univi i polsi e mi appoggiavi sulla porta di casa.

martedì 4 giugno 2013

Denn die Zeiten ändern sich jetzt

"We always forget to put a price under ourself, man" This city is a bullshit and the reason is fairly easy. It gives you so many opportunities then you never lose the hope. Therefore you wait, you get wrong and you try again. Falling I've met much more interesting people than the bosses on the top. They are the ones who will tell you "I help you, you deserve it!" and after they had sucked all my soul, started to tell me that I'm crazy and I cannot manage to handle any responsability. Everyone knows that I'm not that normal, I've never tryed to hide it and that's what most of them are missing. Creative talent and no fears. I gave everything to this fucking city, I've helped every person I could, forgetting about myself. And all I've now is a huge hole. And I swear on my holy God that I would love to pretend that nothing happened, to just don't care of understand which has been the mistake. And everytime I sit on the carpet in my room, I can find explanations that're exactly the things you were complaining about me. But still in my mind you were the one who arrives and everything got fucked up. That's what obsess me...you where the cancer or the cure? Really after 5 years living in Berlin I needed you to get it? Just a pity that if you really are the cure, now I've to wake up - stop thinking and tell everyone that "Yes, I've a boyfriend and I love him". I should only be patient and maybe give up, keeping just the light you gave me. Indeed in my deep all I want now is a plan to conquer our lives and let us shine. You know, like "Ocean's eleven" (the 60's one). Depth apart, I can easly think that was not me, was not you. It was only the city - this merry-go-round with too many people on to stand all of us. Whatever it was, I'll know it after have left it.

sabato 23 marzo 2013

Why I'll marry a rich, worthless man

it s like finally i get how it was going. i was blind. i had no idea about how much i was waiting for you when we met the first time. then i felt you and the only thing i had in my mind till now was loving you and get you sadisfacted. i was so blind then i haven t seen that i was walking alone. from the new year till now was only a turning on ourself looking for each other. and i ve seen no one close to me. i had so many illusions, i thought really that we were totaly stupid being afraid the one by the other. then i stopped. it was in that moment that i close the eyes leaving my body falling in your arms. but there was no one there. and every pieces it s a lie that you told me. i didn t read you last emails cause i have no energies left to stand whatever you re going to say me. i wanted to save you, but i ve overstimated myself. or maybe you.. but you re going to far away and if i can no more follow you, but i ll find a way to make someone else do it. you'll see it as revenge, indeed it's only cause i ve seen how fucking a great person you re. and they're the moments when you think to be boring. like sleeping together the last time. it was the perfect one. every time it's god it's the fucking perfect one. and then........ you re like frank gallagher..remember when he stops to drink, he s the best person ever. then he drinks back and he was taking care only of himself. break all the mirrors around you and avoid to resolve problems. it s only a matter of time till your good side will founder, pressed by your wrong thoughts. you ve wrong to think that i was stupid, i was only in love.